Family Problems That Never Go Away

I feel punched in the gut. I have had problems with an abusive mother, and sort of father too, most of my life. The problem never gets any better, never goes away. Or it may get better for a short time, and then pow--I get it in the kisser again. The first chance my mother gets to throw me under the bus--and then back over me and run me over again--she does. I feel pummeled from top to bottom. A recent problem with another relative has brought these issues to the fore again. I think she and my father think that the more they can say how good they are and what perfect parents they were, the more people will believe it. But the problem is, i was there, and I know what BS that is.