I Didn't Pass The Bar

I can barely believe the words as I write them: I did not pass the bar. How can this be? I am the queen of test takers. The empress of last minute pull-it-offs. But not this time. I saw the list of those who passed, many of whom had lower GPAs than mine. Some had higher GPAs. I can't believe it. I am sore. I am embarrassed. People have told me not to worry about it--that I will pass it next time. And of course I will. But I should have passed it this time. I needed to get into overdrive mode, and I just didn't. And this is the result. It is not the end of the world. Just disappointing. I will write more when I can.